Back Pedaling...

Christians Need to be Strong Enough in their Faith that no matter their environment they can keep their eyes on Christ. It shouldn’t matter if a Believer is surrounded by the world or apostasy. They Should be Strong enough in Christ to not be Affected- Or Conformed. SHOULD, Being The Key Word. Ive Been Realizing this A lot this Last Semester. The Fact That the Rest of The world isn’t like Cedarville and that I need to soak up as much of it as I can. Its Frustrating to see that Im not what I Can and SHOULD be.

I have All The Time In The World right now Over Break and yet I find it so Hard to spend Time with God- Or Do anything Useful at all. It’s Not that I’m in a Bad Environment- Its Frustrating though to see that I’m Still Not far a long in my walk as I could be. Not as Far as I thought. My gaze needs to be stuck on Christ, not only when it is Easy- but Also when it is Hard.

Im Realizing that The depressing Truth is that I have a Long Race to run- A Race thats Going To take a lifetime. One That Will Never be Finished while I'm on this earth. A race that Will Be Plagued by My Fraility.

One That I cannot Finish Or Even Run without Christ.

At First I was Frustrated. The Fact That I cannot Run This Race. The Fact That I FAIL on my own.

On my own.

The Gospel Preached in many Churches today is that We can do everything ourselves. God is dumbed down. He is only a Benevolent father figure that always gives you what you want.

Unfortunately those Churches in my opinion are worshiping themselves And Not my God.
My God Saved Me Through Grace. By Faith. He Demands My Loyalty. Yet, he is an extraordinary Father who is helping in this Race because yet again I can't do it on my own.





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Sorry For this Blog Being Terribly Random. It's 2am.

Trusting....

As a few of you know, Ive had a love obsession with motorcycles for several years now. I finally bought my first bike in October, Thinking that FINALLY! Finally my dream has been Realized.

But. At this point it looks like God has had a different Plan. I'm Having trouble getting my liscence- the timing isnt working out. I had my ride test cancelled this last sunday; then rescheduled for after I get back to school. So, I'll have the Plates for the bike but no liscence. So my Only Real option is to sell the bike.

You Can Be Praying For The Brown Family:

• I'm going into the doctors office tomorrow to get a Endoscopy- Basically A camera they stick down into your stomach. They're Checking to See if I have an Ulcer or other stomach condition.
  
• On the 2nd of January My Dad goes in for a fairly serious back surgery. There has been a broken peice of his backbone resting on a nerve Since october.

More Random Thoughts....

A Quick Thought:

Does my knowledge of God Drive me to him with a grateful and humble heart or am I Sinning by Haveing a Solid Grasp Doctrine and Yet missing it somewhere? Am I dissapointing Him? Am I Apathetic and spiritually Anorexic?


For Instance. A month or two ago a Chinese minister visited Cedarville. Although, I doubt he has the knowledge of the bible that many American Believers have; He is Completely sold out For Christ.

It Seems like the more we explain God, the less many people Appreciate him. Why is it that I'm not as on fire as those with a Rudimentary understanding of God and the Gospel!?

Thanksgiving Break

Thanksgiving Break Was Boring...